And so I am missing my husband. When I was dating Tom at BYU he graduated and left for Arizona to finish his Masters. I have never felt so lost in my life. I wandered from one day to the next, I was listless unfocused and kind of unhappy. For the first time in my life this independent gal felt as if I had lost part of myself. I didn't know what to do with that feeling. It was a weird thing for me.
The last couple of weeks I have felt listless, unmotivated, lost. I have not known what to do with myself. None of my favorite things hold the same fascination for me. I seriously feel as if I am wandering aimlessly from one day to the next.
I was starting to worry. What is wrong with me I thought. Am I depressed? Am I having a midlife crisis, Do I need to change something in my life? And then I realized -- I am just missing Tom. Tax season is hard. Sometimes I forget how hard because hey, this is what we do. Just like other people have their busy seasons this is ours. I always think hey I am one independent gal and I will get through this. But man am I glad we have less than a week left. Because somehow I can't motivate myself to be independent when I barely see the man that is my other half. He motivates me to be me without words -- just simply by being around me, whether that is through moments of love, frustrations or peace.
Can't wait for new sunset sightings in our future. I guess I am just happy to know that I still can't live without that guy.
2 comments:
Very sweet Rachelle. Hold on, it's almost over.
did he read this? Because he should. Hope things are better-a few more days left for the extension right.
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